Dawn & Dusk

I am stuck in a loop
Every day feels the same
I have to fight the same battles
I have to endure the same pain

I have to face the same doubt
About whether I will recover
Then realise I have to continue
Otherwise I will go under

I am tired of wondering
If I will ever make it through
Whether I will ever show the world
All the things that I can do

I am tired of writing poems
To ease the pain inside
When I have universes to construct
Timelines to define

So, in this suffering
And in this pain
I am left to wonder
Will there be any gain?

Will this heavy loss
Weigh me down until the grave?
Or will there be a silver lining
In the midst of all this pain?

I hold a torch
A faint speck of light
I hold it in defiance
To this vast, encircling night

I will hold on
I will see it through
I will cling to my God
I will cling to truth

And the relentless beating
Of pain in my soul
Will become the rhythm
To my victory song