Trauma
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Overwhelmed
So many stairs But they all lead nowhere For every floor of this building Has fallen into disrepair Empty offices With bright blinking lights Overturned tables Give shelter to mice Scattered chairs Litter the halls As unhooked phones Are endlessly called Heartless machines Beep and crackle Printers print pages Of mindless babble The manager’s door… Continue reading
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Buried
I tried to bury My pain with purpose Until my strength was consumed By a pitiless furnace My body was worn down Until there were only scraps So that a gnarled skeleton Was all that I had I dragged myself on Through more and more misery Too afraid to face The pain inside of me… Continue reading
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Oppression
I have felt the weight Of a thousand terrible tears And felt the claws Of my festering fears I have looked my anger In its red, cloudy eye And watched as despair Blotted out the sky I have felt the grip of dread Before a challenge begins And the endless emptiness After it ends All… Continue reading
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Heartquake
A deep sound Makes the ground quake It’s the beating of a heart That’s about to break It sends shuddering waves Through the floor Causes the locks to break On every door It causes teeth To chatter in their jaws And bones to rattle In a gruesome applause It vibrates through The creaking foundations And… Continue reading
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Misery’s Misty Mirage
An injection of misery Black poison in my soul Dragged my optimism Into a wretched hole Fed me sadness Stole sweet joys from my mouth Hung grey bags of misery To pin me to the ground A misty mirage To show me lies Replaying dark memories In my mind But a side effect It never… Continue reading
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Sticks and Stones
Sticks and stones May break bones But cruel words Turn hearts to stone You can get back up From a push or a shove But be crushed by the weight Of betrayed love Cuts and wounds Can be seen and sown While inner damage Hides in the unknown It’s the body’s nature To attempt healing… Continue reading
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I Want to Win
I don’t want to Use my pain As a shield From necessary change I want to grow I want to win I want my story To have a victorious end The child in me Does need comfort I will always be there To ensure he is covered But I am An adult now And it’s… Continue reading
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Black Binbag
I saw the disdain In their eyes Their secret contempt As for help, I cried They shook me off Like a damp rag And left me to rot In a black bin bag It was in this decay And in this filth That an important truth Was slowly built That my true value For which… Continue reading
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Inversion (Part 1 of 3)
A lament I see cold stars In dark skies Their blue light No warmth provides A black sun rises Radiant dark Light flees into cracks Night is about to start Blue flames lock me Into a pillar of ice Water shoots upwards The ground by clouds dried An inverted worldSets its mightTo stop my journeyTo… Continue reading
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Echoes
Why did the people Trying to help me Sound like the voices Depression sent me? I went to them To be released But they tightened the straps And added a leash The condemnation, the shame The endless berating Why did they echo My internal narration? They thought I was weak And they did not hide… Continue reading
