Trauma
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Inversion (Part 1 of 3)
A lament I see cold stars In dark skies Their blue light No warmth provides A black sun rises Radiant dark Light flees into cracks Night is about to start Blue flames lock me Into a pillar of ice Water shoots upwards The ground by clouds dried An inverted worldSets its mightTo stop my journeyTo… Continue reading
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Echoes
Why did the people Trying to help me Sound like the voices Depression sent me? I went to them To be released But they tightened the straps And added a leash The condemnation, the shame The endless berating Why did they echo My internal narration? They thought I was weak And they did not hide… Continue reading
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It’s Not Complicated
A lament There’s nothing complicated here It’s not hard to understand There’s no need to speculate This is not hard to grasp Take a person Work him to the bone Strip him of what he loves And leave him on his own He will dwindle and fade Fall into an abyss Be consumed by exhaustion… Continue reading
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Treadmill
A lament I am on a treadmill And I dare not stop For a bed of spikes wait If I were to fall off I am in a cruel game A wicked trap Holding a boulder over my toes Until my arms crack If I stop my efforts My mood will fall If I continue… Continue reading
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Capsized
Raging stormsWith fiery wingsSwept down uponMy naive dreams Small sailing boatWeak and untestedDipped under the swellAnd never crested My hands clasped crude rockInstead of goldSnagged seaweedIn the crippling cold But in the armsOf the raging seaWas where I finallyLearned to swim Continue reading
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Mood Drop (repost)
A lament Why does my mood drop Like a stone in a lake? Like a dead bird from the sky Or a beast bitten by a snake? Why does my mood drop Like a foolish climber off a cliff? Like an elevator gone rogue That is descending too quick? There is a gravitational force Working… Continue reading
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I am not a Zoo Animal
I am tired of people Trying to fix me Of prodding me With endless enquiries Of marvelling at my pain Like it’s an animal in a zoo And discussing among themselves Which techniques they would use Of trying to make me Their pet project Or seeing me as a challenge For their incredible intellect But… Continue reading
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Cut Adrift (repost)
I am adrift on a raft Lost at sea Cast away on an island With no one but me I am in a glass box But the glass is blurred I have given up screaming For I cannot be heard Trapped in a prison Within my own mind My senses stripped away I am deaf,… Continue reading
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The Painful Choice
A lament For what will IEndure this pain?For what will I faceMy trauma again In every interactionIt stirs from its restA splintering knifeIn the centre of my chest If I choose to be realVulnerable and genuineThen for days I will sufferFeel the torture within But if I shield myselfThen I must faceThe distancing of relationshipsAs… Continue reading
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Jewels of Jealousy
A wretched ruby Of wrath and rageGlowers in Its fiery cage A bitter ball Of bickering blameSimmers in Jealousy’s cold, blue flames A swirling sphere Of ceaseless sorrowBears grim tidings On the morrow Jewels of jealousy And of judgementGive rise to misery And destruction Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 