Rejection
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Echoes
Why did the people Trying to help me Sound like the voices Depression sent me? I went to them To be released But they tightened the straps And added a leash The condemnation, the shame The endless berating Why did they echo My internal narration? They thought I was weak And they did not hide… Continue reading
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Mourning
A lament Everyone tries toCheer me upBut I have no oneTo mourn my loss I must swallow the darknessHold it in my throatSmile politelyWhile I silently choke My pains are my ownThey cannot be sharedThey are too muchEven for those who care So they build upIn the centre of my chestAnd spill out onto paperThe… Continue reading
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I am not a Zoo Animal
I am tired of people Trying to fix me Of prodding me With endless enquiries Of marvelling at my pain Like it’s an animal in a zoo And discussing among themselves Which techniques they would use Of trying to make me Their pet project Or seeing me as a challenge For their incredible intellect But… Continue reading
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Well of Sorrows
I have in me A well of sorrows Its dampness permeates Seeps into my bones I filled this chasm With wretched tears Hiding them from The scorn of my peers On some days It overflows As ink-stained tears That form into poems So I will let this flow Of tears start So other emotions Can… Continue reading
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Don’t Pity Me
I don’t need your pity Your kind, empty words My pain is rotting meat Your words, tasteless herbs Don’t deflect, don’t divert The blood-stained flows of my heart If it is too much for you to bear Please don’t bother to ask I don’t want people To feel sorry for me To gawp at my… Continue reading
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Stormweather Friends
A lament I don’t want Storm-weather friends Can’t they see the message That it puts in my head? That I am pitiful A charity case A way for insincere people To maintain face That I am of no interest Have no worth Except as some sorry thing To be picked up from the dirt In… Continue reading
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Wicked Branches
Twitching branches Pale, ghostly arms Sickly leaves unfurling With blackened palms Greedy and cruel With clinging vines Wicked whispers which Corrode and undermine Spiteful words Birthed this jungle here And so festering self-doubt Leads to paralysing fear The branches lock Around their victim Twitching delightfully As he starts to listen Continue reading
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Broken Trust
A lament My trust in people Has been eroded For when I needed help I instead was scolded I was branded with The mark of incompetence Derided for my Lack of resilience I opened up Exposed my emotions They stabbed my heart With a black poison Now their voices are Inscribed in my mind And… Continue reading
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The Words They Chose to Say
They wrote their words On my skull Now under the waves My head, they pull They judged me When they didn’t even know me Ruled me out When they didn’t know my story Words they threw With little thought Like poisoned darts In my mind, were caught Now I hear them Every single day The… Continue reading
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Dark Waterfall
I was drowning Under a black torrent Clinging to a cliff Of misfortune and torment I tried to grasp On to higher handholds But my bony fingers Had grown ice-cold I cried for help From those above They berated me Rather than pull me up Their toxic words Spewed like bile Adding to the flow… Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 