Shame
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Overwhelmed
So many stairs But they all lead nowhere For every floor of this building Has fallen into disrepair Empty offices With bright blinking lights Overturned tables Give shelter to mice Scattered chairs Litter the halls As unhooked phones Are endlessly called Heartless machines Beep and crackle Printers print pages Of mindless babble The manager’s door… Continue reading
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Black Binbag
I saw the disdain In their eyes Their secret contempt As for help, I cried They shook me off Like a damp rag And left me to rot In a black bin bag It was in this decay And in this filth That an important truth Was slowly built That my true value For which… Continue reading
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Echoes
Why did the people Trying to help me Sound like the voices Depression sent me? I went to them To be released But they tightened the straps And added a leash The condemnation, the shame The endless berating Why did they echo My internal narration? They thought I was weak And they did not hide… Continue reading
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Mourning
A lament Everyone tries toCheer me upBut I have no oneTo mourn my loss I must swallow the darknessHold it in my throatSmile politelyWhile I silently choke My pains are my ownThey cannot be sharedThey are too muchEven for those who care So they build upIn the centre of my chestAnd spill out onto paperThe… Continue reading
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I am not a Zoo Animal
I am tired of people Trying to fix me Of prodding me With endless enquiries Of marvelling at my pain Like it’s an animal in a zoo And discussing among themselves Which techniques they would use Of trying to make me Their pet project Or seeing me as a challenge For their incredible intellect But… Continue reading
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Locked Inside
I built a cageFrom the strongest steelTo lock away memoriesTo pretend they weren’t real I accepted the secrecyOf hidden painRather than endureThe agony of change I suffered in silenceIn this bath of hot oilMy insides meltingFrom this toxic toil So I built a new cageFrom a kinder steelAnd I locked away my shameSo that I… Continue reading
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Whispering Snakes (repost)
Shameful whisperings Encircle like snakes Corrode my belief And undermine my faith They sing in my dreams A spiteful tune of woe They slither under my skin They go everywhere I go These snakes bind my hands And wrap around my neck They warn me not to speak Or my life they will wreck But… Continue reading
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Wicked Branches
Twitching branches Pale, ghostly arms Sickly leaves unfurling With blackened palms Greedy and cruel With clinging vines Wicked whispers which Corrode and undermine Spiteful words Birthed this jungle here And so festering self-doubt Leads to paralysing fear The branches lock Around their victim Twitching delightfully As he starts to listen Continue reading
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Rotten Remnants
A lament My spoken words are woodenRotten remnants of tree carcassSo flimsy and flakyFailing to fulfil their purpose They fall to the groundHollow and frailFor mould and fungusTo turn them stale I plant them carefullyTry to build a forestBut a soft wind blowsLeaving me embarrassed So I embalmed my heartIn thick white waxAnd allowed my… Continue reading
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Broken Trust
A lament My trust in people Has been eroded For when I needed help I instead was scolded I was branded with The mark of incompetence Derided for my Lack of resilience I opened up Exposed my emotions They stabbed my heart With a black poison Now their voices are Inscribed in my mind And… Continue reading
