Dawn & Dusk

A lament

I feel so frail
Like an ancient vase
A thin sheet of ice
A cracking piece of glass

A tiny bit of pressure
Placed in the wrong place
And my mind caves in
And the day goes to waste

When I stand up for others
Sacrifice myself
Strength comes from nowhere
Suddenly I can help

But when it is time
For me to finally rest
I crash in a heap
Become a total mess

All of my own time
Is invested into recovering
No time to feel joy
No time to be growing

And so I am caught
In this terrible loss
An ever-spinning cycle
With an ever-increasing cost

Why won’t you help me?
When I am falling apart?
This punishing regimen
Is breaking my heart

And so in these four walls
When I am by myself
I am a creaking old man
Groaning desperately for help

God, I need Your life
To revive me now
I cannot keep living
With my head so far bowed