Dawn & Dusk

It’s not all my fault
It cannot be
No one has put as much effort
Into this as me

I have opened up
My most vulnerable spaces
All I have had in return
Are cold, empty faces

They throw generic solutions
At my complex problems
Ignored my years of trauma
For a simple maths sum

So now
As my mind clears
The reasons for my low mood
Are abundantly clear

If you experience trauma
And find yourself isolated
Wear a fake face every day
And your greatest passions are suffocated

People shouldn’t act surprised
When you say you feel down
They shouldn’t wonder
At these deep, mournful sounds

In the end
I discovered a truth
That I wasn’t just to ignore
All I have been through

Instead, I will harness it
Like an incoming wave
Mount it like a dragon
Make it my slave

I won’t follow society’s myths
Or generic, vague advice
I will learn about myself
And this condition that I fight

If no one else will journey with me
Then I will journey on alone
I know who I am
And I know where I am going