Anxiety
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A Court of Fear and Loathing
My thoughts gather On this spiral staircase Each one sneering With malevolent face They’ve all prepared Each one has a speech Either some accusation Or a declaration of defeat I spin round In this amphitheatre But my attempts at defence Will have no impact here Their white papers Rain down As cheers of derision Echo Continue reading
Anxiety, Depression, Emotions, Fear, Guilt, Hope, Pain, Perfectionism, Poetry, Rumination, Trauma, Truth -
Authenticity
We wear the mask Until we forget who we are We take the real us And hide it in a jar We follow their script Until we forget our voice We follow their directions Until they become our choice We play their game so long Jumping through every hoop That we forget it’s a game Continue reading
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I Tried to be Normal
I tried to be normal I really did I tried to be proper Tried to fit in I gave it a good go I promise, I did Made sure to practice Every night before bed I tried to be normal Though it was hard I watched my every word And was always on guard I Continue reading
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Black Bird
Black bird shadowing My every step Its monstrous shadow Stretching out ahead Black bird hovering Above my head at night Building a nest in my skull To rest from its flight I was its subject For far too long Until I looked up And saw something was wrong Its shadow did not match Its skeletal Continue reading
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Anxiety’s Equations
Anxiety is like a Flustered mathematician A self-appointed professor Who can’t do simple addition He stares in panic At his cluttered chalkboard He is bewildered by his own working But yet he is sure That my world will end And my future is doomed That disaster is inevitable And there is nothing I can do Continue reading
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Perfectionism
A faint whisper In my ear An unsettling feeling A shiver of fear You always tell me That disaster is on its way That I have to do more To keep the destruction at bay You are a phantom Chasing me down dark alleyways You chant constant threats I always feel your blade One day Continue reading
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Hope and Fear
What do you do When hope is your greatest fear? When you fear that anticipation Of getting everything you hold dear? What do you do When you fear the light? When you fear the waking dawn Because it always dips out of sight But once you get over That fear of failure You realise that Continue reading
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Fear
Concealed in the mist Fear waits A ghostly ship No sound, it makes Its tattered flags flutter Skull and crossbones embossed A warning sign to the approaching That all hope is lost Ships veer widely At the sight of it Consumed by panic At this infamous ship As they retreat Only then does Fear move Continue reading
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Dawn & Dusk Intro
I write poems of light and dark. From the darkness of my experience of depression to the light of my faith and hope in Jesus Christ. On some days, my poems feel like a brightening dawn. On others, like a deepening dusk. But always I hold on to the truth. That the light will overcome Continue reading
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Inner Storm Haiku
A haiku on anxiety Inner storm of fearCrackling lightning and thunderBut I am stronger Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 