Bitterness
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Efforts
I have worked myself Down to the bone Lived my life Doing as I was told I tried to keep the standards To be a good Christian I wrote down every command From the things I listened I tried to fit Other people’s expectations Mould myself Into their fittings The effort Left me a wreck… Continue reading
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Writer
A lament God, why have you made me To be a writer? To be inflicted With these desires? Pain builds up Within my soul Until it bursts out In these words of turmoil In my head Words scream aloud Worlds are being born Characters wander around My mind will not rest It will not stop… Continue reading
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The Vase
They put the vaseIn my hands at birthAlong with a noteOf how much it was worth When I could walkI had to place it on my headThere it had to remainNo matter what I said Everyone’s eyesSeemed to be drawn to itWhispering and watchingTo see if it would slip So I worked harderThan all the othersPushed myself to… Continue reading
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Black Poison
I spit black poisonOut of my mouthA venomous riverWinding its way south It’s an overflowFrom my tortured heartInjected with miseryBy events so dark They are harsher thanI truly meanBut I can’t hold backWhen I paint this scene I must let the angerThe bitterness pour outSo I can truly comprehendWhat this pain is about Then I can learnForgive when I… Continue reading
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Thimble Sized Heart
I feel the rage inside meA rolling fury of seaAn eruption of fierce stormsAnger at what could have been There is a seething, contorting massResiding in my soulA hurricane of epic proportionsA viciousness I cannot control All that angerAll of that rageIs condensed into a thimbleA small, rattling cage This tiny contraptionIs thrust into my heartHissing like a… Continue reading
Anger, Bitterness, Christ, Christian Poetry, Depression, Emotions, God, Healing, Hope, Pain, Poetry, Redemption, Trauma, Trust -
Resentment
To the sadness in my heart, I see you, I hear you. I will discern what is true but first tell me your story. Resentment, I see youI suppressed my painI lied to myselfAgain and again Pretended I was alrightMade excuses for othersBuried the seeds of hurtDeep under the covers And now you writheIn the depths of… Continue reading
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The Tightrope
Do what you love To break yourself free But if I do too much My mind cracks beneath me It’s a balancing act Edging across a tightrope But I have no balancing bar So how can I have any hope? I am left to struggle To find the answers on my own But whichever way… Continue reading
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Black Wave
He burned with a black fury An anger that could not be controlled For so long he carried this burden Because of lies he was told His enemies teased and mocked Celebrated their victory over him He was buried under darkness Weights tied to every limb But they underestimated his fight The power of his… Continue reading
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I Will Keep On Writing
I will keep writing until they listen I will keep writing until someone hears I will keep pouring out my sorrows I will keep unpacking my fears The words won’t stop Until someone stops And pays attention The words won’t stop Until the doors are unlocked And someone enters I know of no other way… Continue reading
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Frustrations
It’s not all my fault It cannot be No one has put as much effort Into this as me I have opened up My most vulnerable spaces All I have had in return Are cold, empty faces They throw generic solutions At my complex problems Ignored my years of trauma For a simple maths sum… Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 