Depression
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Frustrations
It’s not all my fault It cannot be No one has put as much effort Into this as me I have opened up My most vulnerable spaces All I have had in return Are cold, empty faces They throw generic solutions At my complex problems Ignored my years of trauma For a simple maths sum… Continue reading
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Reluctant Poet
I never wanted this To be a poet To write my darkest emotions So others could know it I would have liked to have been Just like everyone else But it had to be me That went through this hell For my mind to crumple As waves of emotions batter it For my train of… Continue reading
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Dark Room
A lament Waking upIn a dark roomAll aloneI must assume Don’t rememberHow I got hereCan’t see anythingBut my own fear The room is vastI have spent years searching itIt is filled with sharp objectsWhich cause me to trip The room’s not squareIt’s an irregular shapeAnd I’ve only just realisedThat it can change It’s fighting meI… Continue reading
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The Morning Mist
A lament Every morningIt descendsNo matter how wellThe previous day ends A haze of confusionA slowing of the mindA misting of the windowThat I have inside To fight itWill drain everything I’ve gotBut to let it sit thereWill make my brain rot And so I must pushTake the mountain pathOnly wearying disciplineWill eventually be enough… Continue reading
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The Pyre
A lament I lay my body Onto the pyre I sacrifice myself To the roaring fire Every morning This is the price I pay To keep on the fight To see another day Every day I have to make the choice To lay down my desires To silence their voice I have to feel the… Continue reading
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The Painful Choice
A lament What will I suffer for?For what will I bear this pain?The trauma inside of meBears fruit once again In every interactionIt stirs from its restA splintering knifeIn the centre of my chest If I choose to be realVulnerable and genuineThen for days I will sufferFeel the torture within But if I shield myselfThen… Continue reading
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Misunderstood
I feel misunderstood Like no one knows the real me I am locked deep inside And there’s no one looking for the key I don’t function like others My mind is not like theirs People wouldn’t understand my thinking I am not sure they would even care While others have friends In who they can… Continue reading
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Don’t Pity Me
A lament I don’t need your pity Your kind, empty words My pain is rotting meat Your words, tasteless herbs Don’t deflect, don’t divert The blood-stained flows of my heart If it is too much for you to bear Please don’t bother to ask I don’t want people To feel sorry for me To gawp… Continue reading
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Too Late
A lament Don’t tell me now That you’ve always appreciated me Don’t tell me now Of the things you like about me Now that I am no longer Hiding my pain Don’t belittle me With these kind refrains You mean you liked me But never said While I had all these voices Insulting me in… Continue reading
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Hope
A searing pain Off the charts Cripples my soul Shatters my heart It summons a tempest Whispering winds like a ghost The dusk sky deepensStained by my dark groans A singular word Written on paper Breaks the stronghold Changes the weather In the battering storms It helps me cope Brings light into darkness The word… Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 