Perfectionism
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Failed Foundation
I feel beneath my feet The ruins of a foundation A groundwork that was laid But was completely wasted A life spent But spent in vain Now these stones Are just a source of shame I prepare to break These reminders up But something in me Causes me to stop My failed foundation My so-called Continue reading
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A Court of Fear and Loathing
My thoughts gather On this spiral staircase Each one sneering With malevolent face They’ve all prepared Each one has a speech Either some accusation Or a declaration of defeat I spin round In this amphitheatre But my attempts at defence Will have no impact here Their white papers Rain down As cheers of derision Echo Continue reading
Anxiety, Depression, Emotions, Fear, Guilt, Hope, Pain, Perfectionism, Poetry, Rumination, Trauma, Truth -
Jester
I am not sure How I got this role I did not apply But was still enrolled Chosen as the happy one Who cheers everyone up Who always smiles And shows true love I was the one To carry other people’s burdens But found myself alone When I was hurting I danced so long That Continue reading
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Invisibility Cloak
A young man lives In a shroud of smoke His staggering steps hidden For he wears an invisibility cloak He found it one day In a cupboard in his room It promised to hide his secrets Instead, it became his tomb To all who looked at him He looked like he was doing ok But Continue reading
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Being Myself
I tried not caring But had to give up I tried being lazy But I forgot I tried self-indulgence But I got bored I tried to be extroverted But felt like a fraud I tried to be So many things Then one day I thought I’ll try being me So I gave it a go Continue reading
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I Tried to be Normal
I tried to be normal I really did I tried to be proper Tried to fit in I gave it a good go I promise, I did Made sure to practice Every night before bed I tried to be normal Though it was hard I watched my every word And was always on guard I Continue reading
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The Vase
They put the vaseIn my hands at birthAlong with a noteOf how much it was worth When I could walkI had to place it on my headThere it had to remainNo matter what I said Everyone’s eyesSeemed to be drawn to itWhispering and watchingTo see if it would slip So I worked harderThan all the othersPushed myself to Continue reading
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The Tightrope
Do what you love To break yourself free But if I do too much My mind cracks beneath me It’s a balancing act Edging across a tightrope But I have no balancing bar So how can I have any hope? I am left to struggle To find the answers on my own But whichever way Continue reading
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Fed Up
I have learned during my recovery from depression that it is a journey of learning – learning how to manage emotions, deal with past traumas and about yourself. I have had to learn to move forward with a flexible approach. This poem details my frustration after trying to take a rigid approach and my journey Continue reading
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Condemnation
Like a bludgeon Condemnation aims low Trying to cripple us Our progress to slow It drills in thoughts Hoping to fix them in place Telling us we’re not worthy To finish our race With every blow we allow Our self-esteem becomes distorted Our confidence fractures The supporting structure contorted But just because you fell It Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 