Rumination
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A Court of Fear and Loathing
My thoughts gather On this spiral staircase Each one sneering With malevolent face They’ve all prepared Each one has a speech Either some accusation Or a declaration of defeat I spin round In this amphitheatre But my attempts at defence Will have no impact here Their white papers Rain down As cheers of derision Echo Continue reading
Anxiety, Depression, Emotions, Fear, Guilt, Hope, Pain, Perfectionism, Poetry, Rumination, Trauma, Truth -
Black Bird
Black bird shadowing My every step Its monstrous shadow Stretching out ahead Black bird hovering Above my head at night Building a nest in my skull To rest from its flight I was its subject For far too long Until I looked up And saw something was wrong Its shadow did not match Its skeletal Continue reading
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Winter Days
I feel the ice Congealing around my heart And like frost-bitten toes My emotions drop off The winter days encircle me The coldness seeps in I have forgotten what summer is like The beautiful blooms of spring I shiver on the porch Waiting for these days to be over For this ice palace in my Continue reading
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Anxiety’s Equations
Anxiety is like a Flustered mathematician A self-appointed professor Who can’t do simple addition He stares in panic At his cluttered chalkboard He is bewildered by his own working But yet he is sure That my world will end And my future is doomed That disaster is inevitable And there is nothing I can do Continue reading
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Perfectionism
A faint whisper In my ear An unsettling feeling A shiver of fear You always tell me That disaster is on its way That I have to do more To keep the destruction at bay You are a phantom Chasing me down dark alleyways You chant constant threats I always feel your blade One day Continue reading
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Dark Circle
Dark circle In my brain Drags me beneath The waves again Thoughts revolving I can’t make them stop Jagged voices rising Mine is on the top A black halo Placed on my head Gyrating patterns encrypted With the words that they said Hopeless thoughts Oppressive lies Will flee from the dawn As it starts to Continue reading
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The Storm Inside
A storm swirls Engulfing all I see But a fiercer storm Awakes within me It accelerates far quicker Than the one outside Driven by anxiety At what is before my eyes Fear begins to build Lets rip with roaring thunder Panic flashes in me Lightning bolts of wonder My worries like a whisk Kept my Continue reading
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Dark Room
A lament Waking upIn a dark roomAll aloneI must assume Don’t rememberHow I got hereCan’t see anythingBut my own fear The room is vastI have spent years searching itIt is filled with sharp objectsWhich cause me to trip The room’s not squareIt’s an irregular shapeAnd I’ve only just realisedThat it can change It’s fighting meI Continue reading
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Fiery Darts
Accusing darts fired A hailstorm of fiery arrows Piercing my bones Right down to the marrow Are we resisting this onslaught? Or are we standing by passively? Accepting this barrage of guilt Letting it define our identity Wake up! The punishment has already been taken Our guilt has been transferred In our place, He was Continue reading
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The Broken Record
A lament You carry the broken record Everywhere that you go You despise every vocal You despise every note You hide it behind your back As you joke about your day It’s when you head up to your room That you let the record play A screeching sound begins Piercing your soul like a knife Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 