Bitterness
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Embittered
They thought because I was quiet That I had nothing to say But I held my words within me Until I came to this page They left no space For my voice to be heard So I went to a place Where I would never be spurned Their loud voices drowned out My attempts to Continue reading
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Drained
I hate this This crushing pressure To be the person That always delivers I cannot fail Because if I do Others can’t cope Or know what to do I have achieved so much That if I stop People panic When they notice the loss They suck my talents dry My gifts, my generosity But which Continue reading
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Jester
I am not sure How I got this role I did not apply But was still enrolled Chosen as the happy one Who cheers everyone up Who always smiles And shows true love I was the one To carry other people’s burdens But found myself alone When I was hurting I danced so long That Continue reading
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Rich Fruit
Ideas grow within me Swell like rich fruit Writing is the squeezing That turns them into juice Succulent sentences Luscious lines Spill out onto the paper One at a time The resulting cocktail Refreshes my soul Purges the bitterness From the pain of my toil The words nourish me Remind me of the truth Feeding Continue reading
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Efforts
I have worked myself Down to the bone Lived my life Doing as I was told I tried to keep the standards To be a good Christian I wrote down every command From the things I listened I tried to fit Other people’s expectations Mould myself Into their fittings The effort Left me a wreck Continue reading
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Writer
A lament God, why have you made me To be a writer? To be inflicted With these desires? Pain builds up Within my soul Until it bursts out In these words of turmoil In my head Words scream aloud Worlds are being born Characters wander around My mind will not rest It will not stop Continue reading
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The Vase
They put the vaseIn my hands at birthAlong with a noteOf how much it was worth When I could walkI had to place it on my headThere it had to remainNo matter what I said Everyone’s eyesSeemed to be drawn to itWhispering and watchingTo see if it would slip So I worked harderThan all the othersPushed myself to Continue reading
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Black Poison
I spit black poisonOut of my mouthA venomous riverWinding its way south It’s an overflowFrom my tortured heartInjected with miseryBy events so dark They are harsher thanI truly meanBut I can’t hold backWhen I paint this scene I must let the angerThe bitterness pour outSo I can truly comprehendWhat this pain is about Then I can learnForgive when I Continue reading
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Thimble Sized Heart
I feel the rage inside meA rolling fury of seaAn eruption of fierce stormsAnger at what could have been There is a seething, contorting massResiding in my soulA hurricane of epic proportionsA viciousness I cannot control All that angerAll of that rageIs condensed into a thimbleA small, rattling cage This tiny contraptionIs thrust into my heartHissing like a Continue reading
Anger, Bitterness, Christ, Christian Poetry, Depression, Emotions, God, Healing, Hope, Pain, Poetry, Redemption, Trauma, Trust -
Resentment
To the sadness in my heart, I see you, I hear you. I will discern what is true but first tell me your story. Resentment, I see youI suppressed my painI lied to myselfAgain and again Pretended I was alrightMade excuses for othersBuried the seeds of hurtDeep under the covers And now you writheIn the depths of Continue reading
Dawn & Dusk 